happy 27th dan, you old man <3
couples yoga
i like the smell of rain
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Every last bit (ao3) - htmllost
Summary: Dan’s self conscious because he’s been gaining a bit of weight. Phil comforts him because his bear is beautiful no matter what.
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the present then, the past now (but she remembers it all) (ao3) - nqkedbooths
Summary: It’s the later hours of the evening, and the two boys are tangled up on the couch, watching TV with the rest of the family. Well, they’re supposed to be watching TV, but everyone in the room is aware of the lazy kisses being exchanged, jokes and anecdotes being spoken softly into each other’s ears followed promptly by silent giggles.
No one minds, though, least of all Kathryn.
does anyone know of anymore?
- Tori
Guys I was productive?!
Flying
Pairing: Dan Howell and Phil Lester
Genre: High school AU (Dan and Phil are childhood friends); Angst
Warnings: (spoiler warning) may be triggering, suicide, self harm
Authors note: so I managed to make myself cry when I came up with the idea but I didn’t cry whilst writing. There is one kinda recurring metaphor through out. Is it just me who doesn’t always like putting in warnings as it spoils the end? I know it’s important but yeah.
Anyway enjoy!
Dan had always wondered what it was like to fly. To feel the wind rush under you, its delicate fingers stopping you from plummeting to the solid ground, whilst the world carried on aggravatingly slowly. It was something all humans had wished for at some point - and Dan was no different - but at the same time, the only reason humanity wanted command of the skies was because they wanted power. And that wasn’t what Dan was. Dan hates humanity for that.
Him and Phil spent many hours playing together; they would soar on imaginary wings, their short arms spread out to either side. Even though their feet were on the ground, they could imagine that their head, heart and hands were floating in the air. The wind would tickle their outspread fingers, and they would look at each other and giggle.
As they got slightly older, they never stopped playing together. They needed each other’s company too much. With the years came more want for adventure. Soon they would swing high on the swings. Daringly, they would let go of the rusty chains and enjoy the few seconds of freedom before they slipped back to the ground. Phil would always be waiting to catch Dan if he slipped, and Dan would do the same for Phil. Sometimes, Phil, being clumsy as a child penguin, would tumble over the edge, and they would land, limbs sprawled, on the damp sand. But they would always end laughing.
Phil had always been slightly taller than Dan, so whenever he jumped, Phil would always be there to catch him.
Even once they entered high school, the dreams never stopped. They would often chat eagerly about flight, laughing at their childhood memories. Phil would laugh, eyes sparkling, and Dan would feel the nostalgia bubbling in his stomach as he stared lovingly at his companion. Sometimes, when it was dark and the stars hid their secret, they would visit the park. To feel the thrill of flying once more.
So, it was no surprise that Dan was smiling slightly as he flew. His feet left the ground, he felt the daring rush as he let go. He could feel his wings spread out powerfully behind him, just like he always imagined them.
Dan started acknowledging his depression as Phil started to drift away. Phil’s cheeky smile had always formed a barrier between Dan and his sorrow; now, as Phil began to make new friends, and a few girl friends, Dan felt more and more unprotected. Like his wings had gone.
But all it took was a few salty tears, and Phil was flying by his side again, pale arms wrapped around him. He didn’t want a girlfriend, he had said, he didn’t need one. He had Dan.
Dan had the whole of the world below him, but he hated it; why should he focus on that when he had his beloved memories to carry him through?
It was another year before they kissed. Another year of self hatred, of dripping rubies against tanned skin, mixing with the hopeless tears. Another year of Dan falling, but then Phil caught him.
It was a perfect setting, Dan had to admit with a remorseful grin. They were on the edge again. Their legs swung over the edge if Dan’s house; outside his bedroom was a small roof, where they could sit and feel the air supporting him once more. A sunset ravelled itself around them. The colours rushed over the horizon: fluffy pinks, followed by bubbling oranges and near-crimson reds. It had just happened. A joke, a laugh, a twinkle, and suddenly they were leaning in on impulse, pushed together by the years they spent with each other. And it ended in a hug and a smile as they watched the colours fade into darkness.
But that night, the shadows visited Dan, like always. And that troubled him. He had Phil, but he still felt that stumbling hatred for the world around him. So why should he stay? Him and Phil weren’t properly TOGETHER if Dan’s thoughts always strayed away from the happiness Phil brought. Phil didn’t deserve him, and that was obvious because Dan couldn’t feel happiness. Phil was too perfect; Dan wasn’t. Dan was living a nightmare, just one where Phil existed. If Dan deserved Phil then he would’ve been able to stop those thoughts. But he couldn’t, so he couldn’t be caught by Phil.
It had been too perfect. Like a dream. And that’s what people did, wasn’t it, to wake up from a dream? They fell. And just before they died, they could escape the dream. And that’s what Dan had to do.
So as Dan flew this time, he stayed focused on the dream, because he knew he wouldn’t have to worry about its perfection ever again. He would fall, and then he would wake up.
He soared through the air, with the memory of Phil beside him, the ghost of Phil’s smiling lips on his. He could feel Phil’s hand in his, but when he dared look, he wasn’t surprised to know he wasn’t there.
This time, Phil wasn’t there to catch him.
And that was okay with Dan.
This time, Dan didn’t want him to.
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it’s no good (unless it’s real) (ao3) - blueshirt
Summary: The first time it happens is an accident.
(Or, the one where Dan accidentally starts reverse-dating Phil in the midst of executing a foreign tour, sharing the world’s tiniest mattress, and generally failing at Amish table-making.)
- Sami
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they’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance - howellslester
Summary: Dan and Phil are both princes that have been taught to hate each other.
-Mae
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they’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance - howellslester
Summary: Dan and Phil are both princes that have been taught to hate each other.
- Rose